Dealing with controlling mother- in- law

 I dealt with having to deal with a mother- in -law that was very controlling. To be honest she traumatized me. She preyed on the fact that my mother was deceased. Me and her son had to live with her a couple of times in our marriage. She treated me like a unwanted step child. She would call me lazy and blame things that I didn't know on the fact that my mother was deceased. My husband at the time sucked right into whatever she thought about me. He begin to treat me according to what she thought of me. I remember one time he brought me some $90 dollar Nikes. She thought it would be funny to wear them outside with no socks. She wore them as they were flip flops. So the back of the shoes was bent. I started to feel bullied. If I would approach my husband about her he would tell me I should stand up for myself. But, as soon as I would say something to her he would take her side. I was so angry, I felt like I was nobody I was literally being mistreated. I didn't know how to walk away. It started to become normal. She turned the family against me. I put so much effort into being a good wife, he couldn't even recognized it  because of the things she installed in him about me. It got so bad that our arguments became physical. He would blame me for everything going wrong in his life. I was his resentment. I was the one trying to push him toward long-term goals.  While she would tell him to find quick ways to get money. I stuck by him regardless of the verbal, physical abuse. I didn't know my self worth. I thought I could make him better, All along I was wasting my years.  I felt like I was in competition with his mom.

God had to come in. I started to harbor things in my heart against her and the family. I really was lost and tormented. I was depressed. When I got around friends all I talked about was him and his family.  My life revolved around the negative. I couldn't even start to better myself, I didn't think I was good at anything. I thank God that he has removed me from such a negative environment. I realized that because I didn't do the things she wanted me to do or even have, I served no purpose in her and his life. But, the plans that God has for my life is bigger and better.  I thank God  that I didn't commit  suicide, Many of days I thought about it, I was so hurt. He redeemed my life from destruction. I am loved, and he will never leave me nor forsake me Deuteronomy 31:6.